Breaking UP December 4, 2009

Breaking up is never easy. For whatever reason it is, both people get hurt. Being the one doing it is always awkward. First you’re not sure what to say, then you start feeling guilty, but then when you finally do say it, it comes out all easy and not always smooth….and you want to make sure the other person understands you even if you’re stuttering and freaking out. In the end, it’s finally over, you guys hug or walk in opposite directions and sometimes you feel horrible and sometimes you feel relieved. Either way….you feel like something might be missing now and it can be good or bad.

I broke up with someone today. It was awkward trying to get my feelings out and my own words out. It was even kinda wierd because his friends thought we were still together. But then it was over….and it wasn’t helping that he was smirking while i babbled in long sentences, like he knew i didn’t do this often and he was happy that i was hurting more than him.

But anyways. It’s all over now. You guys probably know how it feels to be single again. Honestly i kinda like it. I don’t have to worry so much or watch what i say. I can hug and talk and cuddle with anyone i like. Hopefully everything plays out like it’s supposed to.

Have a lovely weekend.

Love, MayMay

Give me this and give me that. i don’t want to face things again. December 2, 2009

People get arrested. In a way, it’s like the whole world is made up of kids, and the police are the adults who punish the kids that don’t stay in line.

Being emotionally drained is never a good thing. In fact, it’s horrible. I came home last night at around 6, and went to sleep around 7 because i was THAT tired. Being in shock is never good either…or going crazy in class. Most people will assume you are on drugs if you keep on acting wierd. Getting a long cut on the arm is never a good thing, especially when something so shocking has just happened. I swear i had 5 people come up to me and ask me if i was okay. You see, they thought i was cutting myself. i know, actually cutting myself! they thought i was THAT crazy. It’s insane what people will think if you don’t act like yourself one day. You know, maybe some people just don’t want to act like themself. Maybe they were originally fakers before and the change you see in them is really them.

We all have different ways of dealing with issues…but guys, don’t intoxicate your body with shit just to ‘get away from the world’ or to ‘run away from the problem’. It’s kinda pathetic.

Have a good weekend.

Love, Maymay